You know when you look up a video and then you end up drifting upon another video? Sometimes that random clip just leaves you thinking,”That was stupid.” But then there are those ones that really touch you and end up changing your whole mood.
This video on America’s Got Talent featured a young girl by the name of Evie Clair. She entered AGT when her dad had stage 4 cancer and continued in the competition even after her father passed away.
After watching this, I got to thinking how she must have felt to watch her Dad slip out of her life like that. Often when trying to fully figure out how someone else would feel I place myself in the same situation. Doing so with Evie’s experience, I felt like crying. What if it were my dad that died? I think I would have a lot of emotions swelled up within me, some of which would be regret……regret for never fully appreciating my dad and all he’s done for me, and for never telling him how much he means to me.
Like most teen girls(including myself), Evie probably had at least one or two arguments with her dad before his diagnosis. She probably said things that she didn’t mean and maybe he did too. I know I’ve had a few of those moments where I, being hot tempered, said things to my dad or about my dad that I didn’t mean, that I only said because I couldn’t control my emotions. I know that if I lost my dad I would never forgive myself for saying any of that or moreover, never telling him that I was sorry and how much I love him.
Although some “What Ifs?” aren’t healthy to be asking all our lives (like: What If I get hit by a car going out to get the mail? What If I flunk school? What If no one likes me?), maybe some What Ifs we should ask our selves more often: What If I never learn personal responsibility? What If I never enroll in school? What If I never go get the mail? What If I never meet new people? What If I never give my little sister a role model to look up to? What If…..I never tell my Grandpa, my Grandma, my siblings, my mom………my dad….how much I love them? What If?
So after thinking these thoughts I want to tell a lot of people a lot of overdo things, but for now I want to tell my dad,” I love you very much and I couldn’t ask for a better dad in the whole world! Thank you for caring about me even when I didn’t notice. You Mean The World To ME! I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!”
I don’t want to wait till it’s too late to ask,”What If I had?” Do you?